PRIYAS PATH...
BY PRIYA NAYEE
AS A PERSON I FEEL THAT I HAVE BEEN QUITE SHY AND SENSITIVE ALL MY LIFE BUT THIS SPIRALLED INTO DEPRESSION WHEN I WAS ABOUT 21 YEARS OLD.
SUFFERING FROM DEPRESSION MADE ME FEEL LIKE PEOPLE TURNED AGAINST ME AND I FELT OSTRACISED AND VERY ALONE. I BECAME SO UNSTABLE THAT I COULDN'T HOLD A JOB DOWN AND LOST MANY PLACES OF EMPLOYMENT. LOSING MY EMPLOYMENT CAUSED SO MANY OTHER PROBLEMS, AND THE VICIOUS CIRCLE WOULD START AGAIN: GET A JOB, LOVE A JOB, DO A GREAT JOB UNTIL THE DEPRESSION WOULD REAPPEAR, LEAVING ME FEELING INADEQUATE AND UNWORTHY.
I WOULD WITHDRAW FROM THE WORLD. LIFE WASN'T GOING ACCORDING TO WHAT I HAD PLANNED AND IT WASN'T LONG BEFORE I BEGAN TO FEEL SUICIDAL. MY PARENTS, CONCERNED FOR MY WELFARE CONSULTED THE DOCTOR WHO BELIEVED THE BEST PLACE FOR ME WOULD BE THE HOSPITAL, AND SO I WAS SECTIONED. THIS WAS AT THE TIME, ONE OF MY LOWEST POINTS AS I HAD TO GO THERE AGAINST MY OWN WILL.
WHILE IN HOSPITAL I HAD TIME TO THINK AND REVALUATED MY LIFE. I DECIDED THAT I DIDN'T WANT TO GO BACK TO LIVE WITH MY PARENTS AS I WANTED MY INDEPEDENCE AND MY LIFE BACK ON TRACK. THE HOSPITAL ARRANGED FOR ME TO LIVE IN A HOME ESPECIALLY FOR PEOPLE WITH MENTAL HEALTH PROBLEMS. IT WAS HERE THAT I STARTED FOCUSSING ON MY LIFE LONG DREAM OF BECOMING A SINGER AND SONG WRITER. THAT DREAM HAS NOW BECOME A REALITY, I'M SINGING AND WRITING SONGS.
A FEW MONTHS AFTER SETTLING INTO MY NEW ACCOMODATION AND NEW BEGINNINGS, I MET A TALENTED DJ & PRODUCER CALLED MARTINA BUDDE WHO WAS INTERESTED IN A SONG I HAD WRITTEN. SHE GAVE ME THE TRACK AND SOON I WAS IN THE STUDIO RECORDING MY VOICE SINGING ON IT. THE TRACK WAS MADE AND RELEASED ONLINE ON VARIOUS PLATFORMS.
I FOUND THAT THE MORE I FOCUSSED ON MY DREAM THE LESS I WORRIED ABOUT MY DEPRESSION. MUSIC BECAME A GREAT WAY OF OVERCOMING THE PROBLEMS THAT HAD OCCURED DURING MY LIFE AND GAVE ME A SURGE OF CONFIDENCE TAHT HAD BEEN MISSING FROM ME FOR A LONG TIME. IT HAS ALSO GIVEN ME A SENSE OF PURPOSE AND HAS RESTORED MY BELIEF IN LIVING LIFE IN A BETTER WAY.
PRIYA'S TRACK WITH MARTINA BUDDE "I WANT TO FEEL YOUR LOVE" IS AVAILABLE TO PURCHASE ON BEATPORT - CLICK HERE
